Okay, this is my depression rant, just a warning....

have you ever felt not...needed? like there's this place you belonged once and now...now it's still a place, but you don't belong anymore? i've felt that way a lot lately. like it's all just shit, nothing for nothing is nothing. i try to convince myself that there's a perfectly good reason to stay here, that i really like this life. somedays i can fool myself. somedays i can't. those are the days i don't like. i feel like crying, but why? i feel like starting over, just up and leaving, like anyone would notice. would they? how long would it take for them to notice? and...would they care?